FWP Chapter 10

Chapter 10: 10 Alyosha

“The closest I was to him was when I was furthest away from him.”

He interlaced his fingers and placed them on his knees. The lights on the road outside were all extinguished, leaving only the light of a mosquito zapper stuck motionless on his face, shoulders, and legs.

“He wouldn’t let me go looking for Chen Buchu again.”

/

The room Zhou Zhao was staying in at the hotel had a musty smell. A single bed was placed right in the middle, the faucet in the bathroom couldn’t be closed tightly and was dripping, and the chair from a set of desk and chairs against the wall was already occupied.

The person occupying it sat awkwardly, their hands twisted back against the chair back, wrists tied securely with shoelaces wrapped around and around.

Zhou Zhao patted his trouser legs expressionlessly. He had just held Wanderer down to tie him to the chair, during which he was bitten twice, kicked countless times, and even took a punch to the jaw from Wanderer.

Zhou Zhao grabbed Wanderer’s legs, untied his shoelaces, and tied them around the chair legs as before.

Fortunately, this kid hadn’t been wealthy for long and hadn’t changed his mind to replace these old canvas shoes. If he had switched to something without shoelaces, Zhou Zhao really couldn’t think of anything he had on hand to tie him up with.

He plopped down on the edge of the bed, knee-to-knee with Wanderer, having prepared a long lecture on the importance of studying in his mind.

Just as he was about to begin, Wanderer abruptly said, “Braised pork belly tastes best when stewed for more than two hours. Add scallions, ginger, and cooking wine when blanching, and you can also cut half an onion, but onions are a bit expensive, what a pity.”

Zhou Zhao simply couldn’t believe his ears: “What?”

Wanderer raised his head, “Nonsense. Is it that hard to understand?”

Zhou Zhao carefully sized up Wanderer, as if seeing him for the first time, “Don’t you want to tell me something else?”

Wanderer sat calmly on the chair. Coincidentally, he was also the one who had just struggled like a slaughtered pig. He endured the pain of having his arms twisted behind his back, and said with a cold expression, “What do you want? Do you want a diary centered on me, filled with bitterness and deep-seated hatred?”

“You!”

“Hmm? What about me?”

Zhou Zhao grabbed Wanderer’s shoulders, using great effort to steady his voice, “What exactly made you drop out of school? Why didn’t you contact me?”

“Why contact you?” Wanderer retorted quickly.

Zhou Zhao was choked by this. Wanderer pressed on, step by step: “Are my affairs very important to you, or just generally important? Do you really want to know if I’m around, where I am, what I’m doing? Look up at me,” Wanderer straightened his body, enduring the force of his arms being pulled back, and was only a palm’s distance away from Zhou Zhao, “Look at me, think carefully about my question, am I really… really…”

Really what? Really endured for too long, and pretended for too long, or was ashamed and angered, feeling that Zhou Zhao had exposed his unbearable other side.

Wanderer’s face was exposed to the pale blue light. His face was white, the angle of his jaw sharp and clear, and the curve of his eyes was like a small scimitar.

Zhou Zhao said coldly, “Wanderer. Don’t say it.”

These words were like a basin of cold water, instantly extinguishing the flickering embers in Wanderer’s heart. Wanderer was first stunned, then turned to endless confusion: He knows, he knows I like him, he knows I’m a gay man.

Since he knows everything, why did he come to seduce me? What does he take me for? Is it because he’s Zhou Zhao?

Wanderer suppressed his anger, gritting his teeth as he said, “Since you don’t mean anything by it, why did you come looking for me? Do you want to find some sense of validation? What were you thinking when I was wrapped around you?”

As he spoke, he frantically yanked at the shoelaces binding his hands. Zhou Zhao had tied them very tightly, without any leniency, and the shoelaces quickly drew blood.

Zhou Zhao reached out to hold Wanderer’s shoulders, only thinking that Wanderer was emotionally agitated, and didn’t notice those small movements behind his back at all.

At this moment, his heart was beating rapidly, like stepping on thin ice, terrified and anxious, worried that he would fall down with him.

“Can’t I just be purely worried about you! Are you like them, with nothing but romance on your mind? Wake up, Wanderer!”

Wake up, Wanderer.

Wake up, Wanderer.

Wake up…

He heard a dripping sound, the sound of blood hitting the floor. He tilted his head, his hair covering his eyes. He glanced over, using the narrow field of vision in the corner of his eye to size up Zhou Zhao.

Of course, I have other things to do.

I have a family to support.

If you don’t come, I’ll pretend you don’t exist. I’ll put you in some random corner of my heart, and I won’t look at you or think about you.

When I can’t bear it anymore, when I hear news about you, I’ll take you out, dust you off, look at you carefully, and then look at the me who remembers you.

“Zhou Zhao. You’re more enthusiastic than me, really. The first time I saw you, I thought you were a cold person. Since disappearing doesn’t work on you, then leave. I’m telling you very clearly, I don’t want to be friends with you.”

Wanderer’s shoulders slumped, and his whole body followed suit. He turned his face away, no longer looking at Zhou Zhao, and pleaded, “Untie me, I want to go back.”

Zhou Zhao didn’t answer.

After a few minutes, Wanderer impatiently urged, “Damn it, can’t you understand human speech! Untie me!” He turned his head and saw Zhou Zhao’s blank face.

Wanderer had seen all kinds of expressions on Zhou Zhao’s face, arrogant and domineering like Li Tinglin, willful and capricious like Yu Zipei. This person is ambiguous, and when he sees the good and bad in others, as long as he likes it, he borrows a little from this one and takes a little from that one. He is a child who grew up eating from a hundred families in terms of personality.

If Wanderer knew about his past, perhaps he could conclude: Zhou Zhao was locked in the basement from a young age, and when he came out at the age of eight, he discovered that it wasn’t raining outside.

He pretends to be very good, as if speaking louder will make him more confident.

But Wanderer had never seen Zhou Zhao’s blank expression before – Zhou Zhao sat on the bed as if struck by lightning, thinking blankly, not friends anymore? Just not friends anymore? Then I can’t control what Wanderer does in the future? Once he leaves, will he come back?

Will he disappear completely like Mom?

Zhou Zhao grabbed his front, as if grabbing his heart, telling it not to run around for no reason.

He said coldly, “You’re going back to school with me, stay away from those people. How much money do you need, I’ll go get it for you.”

After speaking, Zhou Zhao waited anxiously for Wanderer’s answer. He expected Wanderer to be angry, and then he would coax him a little and apologize, and everything would be fine.

He was eagerly waiting for Wanderer to get angry, but he was thinking too beautifully.

A pair of bloodstained hands suddenly attacked, pressing Zhou Zhao’s neck and knocking him onto the bed – Wanderer was like a demon, clinging to Zhou Zhao, seeping into Zhou Zhao’s body with his thick blood.

“Am I being too nice to you? If you don’t want me to say it, I’ll really say it.”

Wanderer used his blood-covered hands to forcefully hold Zhou Zhao’s chin, preventing him from moving.

Then, he kissed Zhou Zhao’s lips – at that extremely unpleasant wound. He carefully licked the small cut, imagining how Zhou Zhao and Yu Zipei kissed each other affectionately.

Zhou Zhao felt something wet on his neck, and on his face, and it felt like his mouth was burning. It was as if Wanderer had fed a fire into his mouth, a fire that was scalding and strong, rolling all the way into his lungs, and following the blood throughout his body, burning his brain into a bubbling mess.

The word “lips” has the radical “mouth,” what is next to the mouth, “this,” does it mean here and now, below is “corner,” is it the corner of the bed I’m lying on?

How does Wanderer know how to kiss so well, he’s so clingy, and he’s bleeding so much, is it because I tied him up so tightly that he got hurt?

Zhou Zhao was thinking vaguely, his thoughts ran especially fast after being heated up. After such a big circle, Wanderer had only kissed him for a few seconds.

“Are you sick? Are you sick?”

Zhou Zhao had an automatic response of “Are you sick?” when someone kissed him.

Wanderer completely ignored his attack. He slipped a leg between Zhou Zhao’s legs, his knee touching it vaguely. Then, his ten fingers were like spider silk released from restraint, crawling into Zhou Zhao’s hair, inch by inch over Zhou Zhao’s scalp. His gentle movements revealed an attitude that brooked no refusal, wanting to infect Zhou Zhao with his thoughts in this way.

His fingertips were very cold, touching Zhou Zhao’s scalp, causing Zhou Zhao to shudder.

Wanderer was really too much. He lit a fire in his mouth while pouring cold water on his head. Zhou Zhao’s scalp was numb from this double whammy of ice and fire. He felt his body reacting.

At the same time, Wanderer lifted his eyelids and glanced at him. He pushed Zhou Zhao’s teeth open with his tongue, and his fingers moved down Zhou Zhao’s ears to the back of his neck, pressing lightly. Zhou Zhao was a clueless youth, how could he withstand such an attack. Carelessly, he opened his mouth.

Wanderer thus got a chance to sightsee. He personally toured the white teeth and red tongue he once praised.

Zhou Zhao wanted to speak, but there was someone in his mouth, and it took a lot of effort to straighten his tongue, “Wand… Wanderer, you really are…” sick.

Wanderer’s eyes were quenched with fire, but he still smiled and fought Zhou Zhao for space, without answering.

/

“We did it five times,” Wanderer said with a wooden face.

Yu Zipei showed a disappointed expression. She scratched her head for a while, and said, “I might have a bit of a cuckold complex. Why do I still want to listen, am I really sick?”

Wanderer had a sullen face, standing aside with his arms folded. He felt that talking about these things under the eyes of God in the courtyard would attract mosquitoes, but Yu Zipei was unwilling to go inside. Yu Zipei was embarrassed enough, shook off the goosebumps all over her body, remembered her original intention, couldn’t help but cursed a few times, and then asked, “Who was on top?”

“He was.” Wanderer glanced at Yu Zipei, “I took the initiative, if the one in the back was still me, wouldn’t that be rape?”

Yu Zipei didn’t understand if Wanderer’s brain had the same structure as gluten, she didn’t understand those men very well.

“After Zhou Zhao woke up, he sat by my bed and stared at me for two hours.” Wanderer put two fingers together between his eyebrows. He saluted Yu Zipei, his smile radiant, “He might have wanted to strangle me, but he also took the initiative himself. If this were in the past, we would have to be drowned in a pig cage together to give you an explanation. Fortunately, you’re a modern person, and we can still keep our little lives.”

Yu Zipei: …

In her eyes, Wanderer was now like Wang Changgui, wagging his hands with a smile on his face, and saying to her, “Zipei ah, the matter is such a matter, the situation is such a situation, I moved your cheese, but your cheese grew a dick and ran away with me, so Zipei ah…”

She let out a breath and said about something else, “Two hours, how do you know it’s two hours, did you count?”

“I counted, I was actually awake the whole time he was staring at me.”

Wanderer didn’t know what Zhou Zhao was thinking. Two hours later, Zhou Zhao packed his things and left the hotel.

He never came back.

“I waited for him for a few days, but Zeng Haitang couldn’t wait any longer. A few days later, I left with Chen Buchu.”

Yu Zipei: “Where to?”

Wanderer pointed south, “A den of extravagance, anyway, it was my first time going abroad. I thought I’d go for a few years, earn enough, and come back to school.”

His tone changed, and his voice turned cold, “But Chen Buchu died. He died very suddenly, without even leaving me a word. When we set off, we said we’d earn a hundred million and burn it for fun.”

Wanderer played with his fingers. He looked out at a patch of forest shade, his gaze passing through the bricks and tiles, through the steel forest, seeing the distant south, seeing the sewage and corpses on the tropical island, “Later, I burned hundreds of billions for him, I don’t know if he received it.”

[Author’s Words]

Wang Changgui is a character in “Rural Love”, his classic line is “The matter is such a matter, the situation is such a situation”.

The main thread of this article is chatting and farting, always chatting and farting, please forgive me friends.