CY – Chapter 15

第十五章

今天小天的媽媽來晚了，張小天在門口等了一會才等到她。

“最近忙，有些顧不上你了。”小天媽媽拎着飯盒下了車，把飯盒放他手裏就要走，被張小天叫住:

“那個，媽。”

小天媽媽聞聲停在車門旁。

“你要是太忙，也不用這樣天天給我送飯。”

“那就讓你在外面亂吃？”小天媽媽眉頭緊鎖，聲音也拔高了幾度，“我可不跟你那不負責任的爸一樣……”

“我早點吃完就能早點回班裏自習。”張小天說道。

氣氛突然有些凝滞，張小天莫名覺得有點喘不過氣，忍不住倒退了半步，低頭看自己的鞋帶。

“媽就是想多關心關心你……”小天媽媽還想說些什麽，手裏攥着的手機震了兩下。她低頭看了看，又擡頭對張小天說:“我再考慮考慮。”

說完就駕車匆匆離開。張小天站在校門口，等着地上的塵土揚起又落下，打開了手裏的保溫飯盒，裏面只餘一絲熱氣。

他嘆了口氣，轉身想回去，看見陸白現在校門口正看着他。

“你要回去了？”陸白問他。

回去也是吃冷飯。張小天低頭把手裏的飯盒蓋子扣好，站在原地沒動。

“要是不着急回去，那就陪我去超市。”陸白走過去，勾着張小天的脖子往校門口的超市走，“哥請你吃好吃的。”

張小天任由他帶着自己走，直到走進超市裏才小聲說道:“我得回去自習。”

“什麽？”陸白愣了一下才反應過來，“你平時學的夠多了，不差這一會。”

張小天沒吱聲。

“你不用緊張，我跟你打保票。”陸白攬着他在貨架間慢慢的逛着，“我看你做的模拟卷了，平時咱們小組讨論我也能看得出來，你肯定能留在咱班的。”

啥都管，一天天操不完的閑心。

張小天随着陸白的動作慢慢走着，陸白的聲音在胸膛裏震動，帶着他的體溫順着張小天肩胛骨的位置滲進來。每當陸白低頭說話時，他身上的洗衣液味兒就離張小天近一些，聞起來熱乎乎的，讓人沒來由覺得放松。

“我沒緊張。”張小天突然說。

“天兒你吃不吃這個……啊？”陸白剛拿下來一袋辣條，聞言又是一愣，“你掉線兒了剛才？才連上？”

張小天遞給他一個看傻子的眼神。

“不緊張就對了。”陸白把辣條塞進張小天懷裏，“這一班也沒什麽大不了的，跟別的班也沒啥區別，只要不是來混日子的都能留下。”

“你怎麽就知道我不是混日子的。”張小天得着個機會又把辣條放回貨架上，被陸白發現後又往懷裏塞了別的吃的。

“你天天坐我眼皮子底下，我當然知道你有多用功。”陸白看他還有把零食放回去的意思，趕緊帶着他往收銀臺走，“況且你這個小正經一看就是只知道學習的那種人，說你混日子，誰信啊？”

張小天被陸白半推半拽的帶到收銀臺前，想搶先結賬又沒得逞，只得抱着零食跟着他走出超市。陸白抽出購物小票随手扔進垃圾桶，回頭對張小天說:“你就得多吃點，我看你每天吃那點東西，跟貓食兒似的。”

張小天跟在他後面，聞言點了點頭。陸白盯着他看了一會，又伸手把零食袋子搶了替他拿着，放慢腳步跟他并肩。

張小天垂眸看着他和陸白鞋尖，腦子裏盤算這些天陸白的所作所為。陸白看上去樂于交友，按照他的性格，就算學校裏有條狗他都能攀上交情，所以對自己這麽熱情并不意外。但這不代表自己可以就這樣習慣并接受。

一想到這張小天就有些煩。

陸白這算怎麽回事？安慰他？還是別的什麽？明明都跟他不熟，他是什麽老好人嗎？

“你想什麽呢？”陸白見他一直不出聲，于是問道。

“在想，你是不是對每一個剛轉進你班的都這樣。”張小天用腳尖踢着路邊的石子。

“沒有啊。”陸白也學着他的樣子找路邊的石子踢。“你是我同桌我才管的。”

“那你對姜研也這樣？”

“姜研？給他臉了，讓我給他買零食？”陸白不可置信，想錘張小天，拳頭都到跟前兒了，一看他那身板兒，又收了七成力道。“你跟姜研又不一樣。”

就是沒事給自己找事的老好人。張小天不再說話，跟着他回到教室裏。

那天之後，張小天和他媽媽之間總有點僵。他媽媽倒是一如既往，事無巨細樣樣要管，但張小天總覺着他那天的态度不好，面對他媽時心裏有些抱歉。他想着自己都已經花了他媽的錢了，就別再其他方面讓他媽費心了，至少學習上也別太讓她上火。興許是心理上有了點壓力，一學習就容易胡思亂想，這心裏有些亂，連陸白在邊上叫他也沒聽見。

“天兒，天兒？”陸白的聲音吓得張小天一激靈。

“你最近咋總愣神兒，”陸白問他，“這一頁都快被你盯穿了。”

“沒事。”

不用陸白提醒，張小天也發現了，越是臨近考試，他就越是不在狀态，偶爾溜號還得陸白叫他才能回過神兒來，這樣下去可不行。張小天定了定神，對陸白擺手示意自己沒事，拿起筆又要寫下一題。

“那什麽，”陸白在桌子底下捅咕他，“你聽歌不？”

張小天轉頭看他:“你咋把手機帶來了？”

“我帶來咋啦？”陸白把一邊藍牙耳機遞過來，“不被發現不就行了。”

張小天猶豫了一下，接過耳機帶上。

“我給詩朗誦找了個背景音樂，給你聽聽。”陸白在手機上點點，耳機裏放出一首激昂的純音樂。

“咋樣，不錯吧。”陸白得意的按了兩下筆，“到時候在主席臺上一放，肯定老有感覺了。”

張小天悶聲笑了笑。

這首放完了，張小天想把耳機還給陸白，但陸白沒要。

“你再聽會兒，就當陪我了。”陸白這樣說，張小天就把耳機又帶回去了。耳機裏是一首安靜的老歌，聽起來很熟悉，但他想不起名字。反正也心煩意亂的做不進題，張小天索性開始拄着腦袋專心聽歌。陸白本來還打算看一會書，見張小天放下筆，就也跟着把筆丢下，學着張小天的動作也托腮看他，兩個人對視時也不知是誰先繃不住了，又扭頭無聲的笑。

“你小點聲，動作輕點。”張小天終于平複好，轉頭看陸白還趴在桌子上笑，趕緊拍了拍他。

“我忍不住。”陸白笑的可燦爛，“我一瞅你就想笑。”

“誰叫你學我。”張小天摘下耳機遞到陸白面前，“我不聽了，給你。”

“你再聽一會。”陸白把手背到身後，“再聽一首。”

Seeing that Lu Bai didn’t answer, Zhang Xiaotian directly put the headphones on the table: “School will be over in a while.”

“Okay.” Lu Bai picked up the headphones from the table and put them directly on his ears.

After listening to two songs, Zhang Xiaotian felt that he was more efficient, so he finished all the remaining questions in one go. He looked up and looked at the time. There were still two minutes before school was over. Zhang Xiaotian looked at tomorrow’s class schedule, picked out a few books and put them in his bag, and then sat at the table to get ready for school. Looking across his side, he saw Lu Bai struggling with a question as if he suddenly felt energetic, so he looked at it for a while. Lu Bai turned the pen on his fingertips very fast, and rubbed his forehead with his other hand. From time to time, he would write two strokes on the calculation paper. Then, as if suddenly enlightened, he would rush to the table and write furiously. Zhang Xiaotian watched him immersed in writing, and suddenly thought that if he could successfully stay in class one this time, it would mean that he would still be his deskmate with Lu Bai.

I still see him noisy like this every day, maybe we can have dinner together if we have a chance. Zhang Xiaotian thought about it carefully and thought it was pretty good.

“Xiaotian! Here!”

When he walked to the school gate, he didn’t see his mother. After waiting for a while, there was no sign of her. Zhang Xiaotian originally planned to walk back by himself, but suddenly he heard someone calling him. Looking around, I saw a familiar-looking woman sitting in a car a few steps away. She seemed to be my mother’s subordinate.

Zhang Xiaotian went over, and the woman got out of the car and opened the door for Zhang Xiaotian: “Your mother asked me to pick you up. The company is busy today, so I have to go back as soon as I drop you home.”

“Thank you.” Zhang Xiaotian sat in the back seat and said after the woman sat back in the driver’s seat.

“Why are you so polite to Aunt Wang?” Aunt Wang smiled heartily and drove away from the school. When he returned home, the room was dark. Zhang Xiaotian raised his hand to touch the switch on the wall. It took him a long time to find it. The light clicked on, and the light illuminated the living room, which had no furnishings, making it look even more empty. This is the house where his parents lived before they divorced. It is now in his mother’s name. Zhang Xiaotian has lived here from birth to the third grade of elementary school. Zhang Xiaotian didn’t stay in the living room for long. He packed up the clothes left on the sofa in the morning, turned off the lights in the living room and went back to his room, intending to take out the books he brought back and read them. As soon as he opened it, the cell phone placed aside vibrated twice.

Zhang Xiaotian picked it up and saw that it was a friend request. The remark was…your dear model deskmate?

Zhang Xiaotian couldn’t help but laugh, clicked OK, put his phone aside, and started studying again. It wasn’t until I finished reading one subject that my phone received a new message reminder.

My deskmate, I can’t find my math paper. Could you please see if it’s at your place?

Posted another “Are you there?” emoticon.

Zhang Xiaotian rummaged through his schoolbag and replied: No.

Lu Bai should be by his cell phone at this moment, and he replied quickly: He may have missed school, and you have to lend me a copy tomorrow.

Zhang Xiaotian replied with a “hmm” and looked at another “clap fist” message over there, so he didn’t say anything else and continued to read the next subject.

At half past ten, when Zhang Xiaotian went to the living room to drink water, Xiaotian’s mother finally returned home and collapsed on the sofa as soon as she entered the room. Zhang Xiaotian originally wanted to go back to the room directly, but after thinking about it, he walked back and poured another glass of water and put it on the coffee table next to the sofa.

“You didn’t wait too long at the school gate tonight.” Mom sat up. He picked up the water glass and took a sip.

“No, Aunt Wang is on time.” Zhang Xiaotian stood by with his eyes lowered, waiting for her to finish drinking the water, and then took the water cup away. As soon as he walked to the sink, he heard his mother say again: “You said you didn’t need to deliver meals during the day, I thought about it.”

Zhang Xiaotian looked back at her, waiting for her to finish speaking.

“You are old too. I believe you will not ignore your body.” Mom paused and then said, “It’s okay to go out to eat. The school doesn’t allow you to bring mobile phones. I will leave some cash for you every month.”

“Okay.” Zhang Xiaotian nodded. After washing the cups and putting them away, he was about to go back to the room when his mother called him again:

“But, Xiaotian,” my mother tapped the word “bang bang” twice on the glass coffee table, “you know, my mother didn’t care about you before. That was because she thought your father would treat you well. Now she no longer brings you food. It was you who told me that you could go back to class early to study early, so my mother met your request. Mom respects your personal opinions very much, and she takes you as the priority in everything, so you can’t treat your mother like you treat your father.”

Zhang Xiaotian was stunned: “What…”

“Mom knows that she did something wrong before, but now she is trying her best to make up for you! You said that your current learning resources and living environment are not better than before? But you can’t always get close to your mother. It hurts my heart!” Mom looked very tired and irritable, and pinched her brows hard. “I don’t ask you to be grateful, but you have to have a good face. You can’t get along with your mother now, so how can you let your mother take you there with confidence in the future?”

Zhang Xiaotian looked at his mother steadily.

Where to take? Her home over there?

If you want to live there, what’s the difference between living at dad’s house?

“You know I’m here just to take you away.” Mom was still saying, “Mom is old and in bad health, so it’s impossible for her to have another child. You are her only child, and I will have to rely on you to support her in the future…”

The phone rang suddenly. Mom picked it up and looked at it. She waved her hand to Zhang Xiaotian, got up and walked to the balcony to answer the phone.

Zhang Xiaotian watched his mother answer the phone on the balcony and turned back to the room.

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