BCGWR Chapter 39 Part 1

From the moment he stopped the hiccuping sobs and could breathe steadily, Han Ji-su asked the God of Rest a few things he was curious about, but the God of Rest mostly avoided answering, saying those were things he couldn’t disclose.

Han Ji-su particularly asked what exactly happened in the Unmeasurable Dungeon, which he was most curious about, but the God of Rest expressed regret, stating it was a matter he could not answer.

During this, a deeply angered Han Ji-su pressed him, but the God of Rest apologized, saying he couldn’t reveal it due to certain rules.

Han Ji-su, barely calming down and composing himself, continued to ask various questions, but gained little. If Han Ji-su asked ten questions, he would only get answers to about two of them.

At first, Han Ji-su wondered if the Patron was just teasing him and felt his anger flare up intermittently. Each time, the God of Rest emphasized repeatedly that there were binding rules and that he too was frustrated by how many things he wished to say but couldn’t.

Regardless of the God of Rest’s situation, Han Ji-su, having ultimately received no answers to the questions he was most curious about, began to ask random questions as they came to mind.

“Then, Rest, are you really a God?”

[The Patron, God of Rest, says yes]

“…Hmm, there are so many Patrons. Are all of them Gods?”

[The Patron, God of Rest, says that while there are many Patrons, not all of them become Gods with strong power]

“…Hmm… So, Gods also have a kind of Rank, like Awakened individuals?”

[The Patron, God of Rest, nods, saying that’s correct. All Gods existing in the world bloom by receiving the belief of sentient beings. Even if they possess the potential to become a God at the beginning, the capacity of their vessel differs, so some Gods become truly great, while others, unable to gain more belief, eventually vanish.]

“…Receiving belief means, well. In other words, you need many followers?”

[The Patron, God of Rest, nods, saying that’s the correct answer]

“…Hmm, then… since Rest is a God, you must know where people go when they die?”

[The Patron, God of Rest, nods]

“…Is Heaven real?”

[The Patron, God of Rest, trails off, saying that it would be interpreted differently depending on how the soul perceives it]

“…Judging by your reaction, Heaven doesn’t seem to be a particularly good place.”

[The Patron, God of Rest, says that’s not necessarily true. It could simply be a paradise for some, and not for others]

“…Really…? Hmm… Then, if I go to that paradise, can I meet the people who died before me?”

The message window, which usually popped up instantly, was silent this time. As Han Ji-su waited for a moment, tilting his head slightly, about to ask why there was no answer, a new message window appeared a little slowly.

[The Patron, God of Rest, says that all souls existing in all worlds will definitely meet again someday. Especially for those with strong bonds, the probability of meeting again in the next life, in the next world, is higher]

“…!! Really? Then if I die now…”

[The Patron, God of Rest, says, however, this does not apply to those who give up their lives willingly]

[The Patron, God of Rest, states that suicide is considered an abandonment of one’s own soul, leading to its immediate annihilation]

“…”

Before the previous message window could even disappear, a new one popped up with a ‘pop!’ Han Ji-su, after checking all the hurried answers that appeared with a sense of bewilderment, his eyes wide as if he had realized something, said.

“But, Rest. You said the stronger the bond, the higher the chance of meeting again, but that doesn’t mean you’ll 100% meet just by dying, right?”

This time, there was no answer. However, Han Ji-su actually gained conviction from that reaction and continued speaking.

“And Heaven might not be a good place for me. Even if I were reincarnated, wouldn’t I not remember my current life?”

Similarly, there was no new answer. Han Ji-su, thinking his guess was correct again, pouted, asking what was the point of it all.

“If I meet them without my current memories, it won’t be me who knows them, so what’s the use? In that case, it might be better to just die and have nothing at all.”

Even if he were to meet someone he missed dearly in the next life, what good would it do if he couldn’t remember anything and couldn’t even recognize who they were? In that case, it felt like it would be better to simply cease to exist, making him feel even more melancholic for no reason.

Perhaps hearing Han Ji-su’s murmuring, this time the message window popped up quite hastily, rushing right up to his face as if urging him to read quickly.

[The Patron, God of Rest, exclaims in dismay, asking how such an interpretation could possibly arise! He says that for a soul to meet its loved ones again, it must be whole, and urges him to start by doing many good deeds!]

“…Good deeds?”

Han Ji-su, finding the message rather absurd, tilted his head slightly and asked again, his brow furrowed.

“If I do a lot of good deeds, will I earn Heaven mileage?”

It was a half-joking, thoughtless remark, but the answer that came back was surprisingly firm.

[The Patron, God of Rest, nods, saying it’s roughly similar. The more good deeds one performs, the more favorably one can begin the next life]

“Ah, really? So Kang Jae-yoon was telling the truth…”

Han Ji-su smiled bitterly, recalling the ‘Heaven mileage’ Kang Jae-yoon always habitually talked about. Before The Cataclysm, Kang Jae-yoon always emphasized, as if in jest, that one should do many good deeds. He would say it would help with negotiations when judged by God after death.

‘…If that’s the concept, then thanks to Hyung, I must have accumulated some too…?’

Since being an Idol is not a profession with much free time, Kang Jae-yoon mostly expressed his good deeds through money. In short, it meant he donated a lot here and there.

He especially felt very sorry for the generation of children just beginning to be born, and he spared no expense in donating to organizations that actively practiced environmental protection, helped animals, and supported the socially vulnerable.