ID Chapter 31

I am Aura Adapter Kwon Su-han.

I am speaking regarding the recent controversy surrounding Endorphin member Ira’s fan gift disposal incident.

First, I express my deep regret that the agency, which should be protecting its artist, has remained silent.

Last year, on July 2nd, during a fan signing event, Ira received cookies as a gift from a fan. Ira did not touch them, but his pet dog Mallang-i consumed the cookies and died on the spot. Forensic analysis by the National Forensic Service confirmed the presence of cyanide, a lethal poison. I have attached the relevant documentation.

Following this, Ira developed a phobia of food given by fans and an eating disorder. He also suffers from periodic vomiting and esophagitis due to stress, and his stomach lining has become significantly thin. At his debut, he weighed 58kg; he currently weighs 42kg, having rapidly lost 16kg in eight months, and is showing symptoms of malnutrition.

The National Forensic Service attempted to report the cyanide detection results to the police, but CEO Shin Dong-woo of Shik City agency objected, preventing the report. We are prepared to take responsibility for revealing the truth belatedly and sincerely apologize to Ira.

Furthermore, I would like to address the incident of the Apple Juice disposal at the 00 performance venue.

On that day, the fan who gifted Apple Juice to Ira insisted, “Ira must drink it,” when another member tried to accept it. While it is true that Ira initially tried to discard the Apple Juice through his manager Yong-jun, who was aware of the cyanide incident, he later experienced an almost-fall accident during a performance due to a malfunction in his Land Shoes’ storage. He then retrieved the Apple Juice he had intended to discard and requested the National Forensic Service to examine it.

The examination revealed that the product contained a small amount of harmful substances from apple seeds and was part of a batch that had been fully recalled. While we cannot determine the fan’s intent, we ask you to consider how shocked Ira must have been upon learning this. I have attached the news article and detection data regarding this.

Finally, I understand that many people were angered by the bread bag disposal incident in the dorm complex a few days ago.

However, I have one more thing to say.

On 0 month 0 day, Ira received a threatening letter from a fan, presumed to be the attempted murderer who gave him the Cyanide Cookie at a fan signing event.

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Upon receiving this letter, which enclosed a razor blade, Ira was gripped by extreme fear.

While discarding a gift from a fan was certainly an imprudent and wrong action, Ira is only twenty-two years old, and he was twenty-one when he experienced the attempted murder last year.

In a situation where an “attempted murderer disguised as a fan” sends a threatening letter, how many twenty-two-year-olds could calmly handle receiving another food gift?

While I understand the anger of many, please consider that Ira’s actions had this background and these reasons.

Thank you for reading this long post.

┗Yeah, right, next fake story.

┗┗Just calling it a hoax and walking away? Kwon Su-han wrote this.

┗D-d-d Kwon Su-han? That? Adapter?

┗S-class Aura Adapter Kwon Su-han ㅋㅋ You really need good connections.

┗Wow, Kwon Su-han wrote a post to shield an idol ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

┗What’s the relationship between Kwon Su-han and the National Forensic Service?

┗┗Kwon Su-han’s younger brother works at the National Forensic Service.

┗Kwon Su-han and Ira were seen at a restaurant, so they must be close, huh? ㅇㅅㅇ

┗Crazy; isn’t this really serious??? It’s almost something that would be on the 9 o’clock news???

┗┗Y-y-y-yes, if she came to a fan signing, she’s probably a teenage girl, isn’t it wrong to let her walk around society so normally?;

┗The company must be crazy. Does it make sense to let someone who tried to kill a person go free?

┗Cyanide, my goodness.

┗Of course he’d develop a phobia. If it were me, I would’ve retired long ago…

┗The police are late, but they say they’ll investigate now.

┗┗Why an investigation… He’s still alive and well, and there’s no harm done, so why investigate?

┗┗┗No harm done? His pet dog died.

┗┗┗┗If they’re going to investigate the death of one dog a year later, I wish they’d help other wronged humans instead ^^!

┗C-y-a-nide, my goodness! What incredible dedication. How much did they want him dead~~ Ira, why didn’t you just die ㅠㅇㅠ!!

┗┗Don’t comment, don’t feed the trolls.

┗┗Why don’t you just die ^ㅇ^!!

┗Ah…..Mallang-i…

┗┗??Mallang-i??

┗┗┗Ira’s dog’s name is Mallang-i. If you go to Ira’s Instagram, there are photos of Mallang-i ㅠ She was small and super cute, but then photos stopped being uploaded at some point..ㅠㅠㅠ

┗I’m not interested in this idol, but as someone with a pet, this is so sad it brings tears to my eyes ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ How heartbroken he must have been ㅠㅠㅠㅠ

┗Mallang-i was Ira’s pet dog since he was around 15 or 16. Ira even mentioned in an interview that Mallang-i comforted him a lot when he was going through tough times. I’m not Ira himself, but he must have had a really hard time.

┗I’m an Endorphin fan and I have a lot to say, but I’ll just leave Ira’s recent interview about why his pet dog died:

‘She ate something bad. She ate something she shouldn’t have when I wasn’t looking. She was so healthy, but there was nothing I could do. Still, it was so sad when Mallang-i left, but now I think she’s happy in a place without pain. She’ll be looking down and watching over me.’

┗┗I didn’t know back then… that it was cyanide…….

┗┗I really hope they pay for their crime. For Mallang-i’s sake, too.

┗┗I was reading the interview and suddenly tears streamed down my face…ㅠㅠ

┗I remember that Apple Juice news… Wow….

┗Am I the only one who doesn’t know ㅜ Can someone explain the Apple Juice ㅜㅜ

┗┗Apple seeds contain a cyanide component called cyanogenic glycosides, and there was a huge fuss because it was detected in the product. It was quickly recalled completely, so it died down fast.

┗┗┗Apple seeds naturally contain cyanide components????

┗┗┗┗Y-y-yes, so you shouldn’t eat too many.

┗┗┗┗It’s scary, I won’t be able to eat apples now ㅇㅁㅇ…

┗┗┗OMG, crazy, so did that staff member’s sister intentionally buy that one? ㄷㄷㄷ

┗┗┗┗We don’t know if it was intentional or not ㅠㅠㅠ

┗Didn’t Ira say to throw away the apple juice without even knowing it was a recalled product?

┗┗Exactly ㅋㅋ.. It sounds like he’s been throwing away everything fans gave him until now?

┗But what I don’t understand is, why didn’t he reveal it until now? Why did he just stay silent?

┗He’s so stupid, is he an idiot? Why does he just keep taking it?

┗┗He’s only 22.

┗┗┗He’s 22, he’s old enough ㅋ

┗┗┗There are people who are parents at 22; age isn’t an excuse~

┗Instead of catching the culprit, he just throws away innocent fans’ gifts ㅠ No matter how young he is, he’s too stupid.

┗I understand…? If the CEO, who’s the absolute boss of the company, tells him not to reveal it, what power does a kid have to do so? Besides, he got so much hate when he joined, his spirit must have been crushed, so he had to do as he was told. He clearly looks delicate.

┗┗It’s infuriating; anyone can see he’s a victim, so the people calling him an idiot in the comments are the real idiots.

┗┗┗222222 There are always those jerks who blame the victim.

┗┗┗┗It’s frustrating, damn it. Why does he just let himself be a pushover? If the company won’t step up, he should step up and protect himself.

┗┗┗┗Can’t I even say this much? Every time, they say I’m blaming the victim ㅋㅋㅋ Honestly, his reaction was stupid. Is it because he’s an idol ㅋㅋㅋ

┗The CEO is bad, let’s report that bastard.

┗How little trust must the company inspire for the artist to go and handle it himself ㅇ0ㅇ..

┗Am I the only one who doesn’t understand this explanation? It means he’s thrown away everything he’s received so far;;;;;;;;;;;

┗┗Wow, that’s right…… It means he threw away all the gifts from fans….

┗┗Are the fans’ mental states okay…?

┗Didn’t some celebrity receive bread laced with laxatives before????

┗┗Yeah, a movie star ㅋ It was a big social issue back then.

┗That actor is still active and doing fine. Developing a phobia from something like that is honestly an overreaction ㅎㅎㅎ

┗┗Only those who haven’t experienced it say things like that ^^

┗┗I hope you also get a snack with cyanide in it as a gift!

┗I don’t understand those who don’t understand…

┗┗22222222 The people who don’t understand Ira right now, are you saying you’d be fine if your pet dog died from cyanide and you received a letter threatening to kill you? ㅇㅅㅇ?

┗┗333333333333333 Only those who have at least been targeted for cyanide murder attempts should throw stones at Ira.

┗┗44444 If it were them, they’d be whining to their moms ㅡㅡ;

┗┗5555555 Even if they haven’t experienced it, it’s hilariousㅋㅋㅋㅋ Their mental state must be superalloy.

┗I think this idol is amazing~ It’s incredible that he continued to perform without showing it despite all that.

┗2222222 I’m not interested in idols, so I’ve only heard the name, but Endorphin’s Ira, I’ll remember him.

┗If he lost that much weight, he should be hospitalized right away, but he sang so powerfully and danced to the group choreography perfectly, even raising aura. He really worked hard. I’m officially a fan starting today!

┗Something about this is really heartbreaking… ‘Please consider how shocked Ira must have been to learn this.’ ㅠㅠㅠㅠ He must have been deeply traumatized ㅠㅠㅠㅠ

┗Did the members know?

┗┗No, if you look at Han-sae’s post on his SNS, it seems he had no idea at all.

┗┗No no no no no no no no no, it seems none of them knew.

┗┗┗Oh no, what do we do ㅠㅠㅠ The members’ mental states will be shattered too.

┗┗┗Why didn’t he tell his own members?

┗No, this is too much. His member was wasting away like that, and they didn’t notice anything strange? He’s practically malnourished.

┗┗There’s a rumor that Ira was bullied.

┗┗┗Don’t spread rumors in my comments, damn it.

┗I wonder about Jae-yi’s reaction…

┗Oh, S-class Motioner Jae-yi was in their group, right??? Knowing Jae-yi’s personality, he’d probably walk right out of the company ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

┗I’m more worried about the fans’ mental state ㅠ

┗Their fan site is in chaos.

┗┗Even places that aren’t fan sites are going wildㅋㅋㅋㅋㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ

┗My friends are crying and sobbing ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ Even though I’m not a fan, I feel like crying too ㅠㅠㅠㅠ

┗Even if he’s young, letting someone who tried to kill him go makes no sense, so I thought about it, Ira is a Souler… There are rumors that the Shik City CEO is an Aura Adapter… Could it be?

┗┗I’m reporting you.

┗┗I also heard the rumor, but if he’s under an Adapter Protection Program, you’re screwed. Delete it quickly.

┗I’m curious about Go Yu-jin’s reaction.

┗┗Exactly.. Honestly, Ira got criticized because of Go Yu-jin. If he hadn’t joined Endorphin, he probably wouldn’t have received the cyanide.

┗┗Tsk tsk, he should just stick to being a singer, why did he go into politics?

┗┗I hope he comes back during this opportunity ㅎㅎ He really was a unique character.

┗┗┗Is that something you should be saying at this time?

┗┗┗He’s almost a sociopath…. Ugh…. It’s these empty-headed idiots who mess up an idol’s life….

┗ㅇㅅㅇI hope all the malicious comments here get sued.

┗┗22222222222 There are truly a lot of strange people in the world.

┗┗If Shik City won’t do it, I want to sue them myself. Is there no way?

┗┗┗There is a way ㅇㅇ I’m attaching a link. They say you can sue as a group? If you do it, I’ll do it too ㅇㅇ

┗┗┗ If you guys are serious, I’ll join too ㅋ I don’t know anything about idols and especially have no interest in other men, but those malicious comments above really make me angry. I hate that we have such haters on our site, and I feel so sorry for that idol.

┗┗┗Me too!!! I’m a male character who knows nothing about idols, but this is really annoying!!! I’ll join in on suing them!!!!

┗┗┗Me too5555555555555555555

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┗┗┗Me too 102102102102

┗┗┗┗I’m an Ira fan, and I came after hearing the rumors. Thank you all very much, and please calm down. The Endorphin members have already sued ^^

2.

I’m an Ira-deokhu, and I understand feeling self-doubt about what I’ve been doing all this time.

I always wanted my artist to walk only on flower paths, but I didn’t even know that the artist I love so much was suffering like this. He lost so much weight that his health was threatened due to phobias and trauma, and all I did was tell him to stop dieting… What good is it to say “let’s only walk on flower paths” a hundred times? What good is it to just talk as a fan when I didn’t even know Ira was living under a death threat? Right now, I can’t even offer any help.

I feel so pathetic and miserable, and most of all, I’m so sorry to Ira. I can’t even lift my head because I’m so sorry to my idol, who went through something like that but couldn’t say anything, just smiling brightly and singing beautifully in front of us. I’m also ashamed that I couldn’t properly trust him or defend him when the gift speculation controversy arose, and my heart feels like it’s tearing apart when I think about how Ira must have watched that controversy.

I’ve also given food to Ira before; I just wanted him to eat well and gain some weight, but how much fear and threat must that have felt like to Ira? It wasn’t just me; so many fans must have given Ira food. How scared and trembling must he have been alone each time? My heart aches so much, and my hands are trembling even as I write this…

It’s not that I don’t understand the Radeogi who are leaving because they’re heartbroken; I’m writing this because I understand them so well. To the Radeogi who are leaving now, we’ll be working hard to solidify things, so you can always come back later when our Ira walks the flower path and blossoms fully…

But you know, I hope you don’t solely blame Ira. Ira was 21. He’s only 22 now… What wise response could a 22-year-old possibly make? How could he defy the orders of CEO Shin Dong-woo, who is twice his age? Our Ira suffered so much in the early days after joining. It was visible how much he struggled, to the point where his chubby cheeks disappeared.

Do you remember how malicious the anti-fans were back then? Turning off their light sticks and remaining silent during Ira’s parts, skipping only Ira at fan signing events, and editing out only Ira’s scenes when uploading broadcast videos. Do you remember when they called a fan on a live radio show, and they mentioned each member, even Go Yu-jin, but completely left out Ira? Have you forgotten that on the group fan page, only Ira’s lunchbox wasn’t given? How much must the child have shrunk and become disheartened?

But amidst all that, he was subjected to an attempted poisoning. Someone put cyanide in a cookie to kill him. His pet dog ate it and died on the spot. He asked for help from an adult nearby, but the adult told him to hide it. Then what on earth could a 21-year-old, who thought he was only receiving hatred, have done?

Because I feel sorry for Ira, I’m going to be an even more dedicated fan. I’ll try harder to ensure that the gifts I give become good memories. Because Ira has continuously shone brightly and sung on stage despite this pain, it’s my turn now. I won’t hold onto the Radeogi who are leaving. Goodbye, fare well. But your leaving isn’t Ira’s fault; it’s yours. Because of this incident, I like our Ira even more, I want to cherish him even more, and he’s become even… even more precious to me. He truly has become a precious existence to me. Forever, even if Ira retires far in the future and never appears again, I will remain a Radeogi. Forever.

3.

It was inside his private jet, returning to his home country to fulfill his next schedule, after taking a photo feeding porridge to a scrawny newborn in the Satare conflict zone, another photo gazing at a collapsed hospital at the entrance of a war-ravaged village, and a final photo on a podium, sending a message of peace negotiation to the dictatorial Dangun. His personal secretary approached him urgently.

“Doctor Go, have you heard the news? From the Endorphin group you were previously with…”

“Endorphin?”

As they were often mentioned together, Go Yu-jin, who had turned on his tablet PC without much thought, gradually grew serious.

“Ira… My goodness.”

Go Yu-jin let out a deep sigh.

Since he had handled his departure from the group hastily, he ended up burdening that child with many things. He knew that Ira had received considerable rejection from the existing fans, but he hadn’t known there had even been a threat to his life.

In a way, he also bore some responsibility, so it was quite awkward.

“Your name is also being mentioned, Doctor. They say it would be better to have him leave and bring you back.”

At that, Go Yu-jin’s eyebrows twitched.

“I will not waste my talent on something like an idol. This rare talent should be used where it is rightfully needed for the world.”

A comeback? The thought alone was laughable and unpleasant.

Go Yu-jin quickly scrolled through the internet reactions, reading them rapidly.

Aura Adapter Kwon Su-han was a globally influential figure whom Go Yu-jin had met once before. He didn’t know how Ira had come into contact with such a person, but as he’d thought before, with Jae-yi as well, Ira had a power to attract valuable individuals.

“I suppose I should go see him after a long time.”

Go Yu-jin, after roughly observing how the reactions were unfolding, turned off the tablet PC screen and said casually.

“I hadn’t intended to return before a year passed, but with something of this magnitude happening, remaining silent would be foolish. It would be good to show my face once, perhaps as a change of pace.”

“Shall I arrange an appointment with Ira?”

“I will contact him personally. He seems to have lost a lot of weight, so please find a good restaurant that offers nourishing food.”

“Yes, understood.”

Go Yu-jin rested his elbows on the windowsill, propped his chin, and recalled the past.

When he left the country, unable to settle the backlash from fans and the public, Ira, who came to see him off, smiled brightly, telling him not to worry and to achieve his dream.

As a fellow Souler, Ira was a child with many surprising aspects.

What reaction would that child, now ravaged by his wounds, show when he met me?

Would he be able to smile again this time?

I should properly express my regret about the poisoning incident and mention the atmosphere at the time of my departure once more. Imagining what kind of reaction would appear on that pale face was quite enjoyable.